Staycation, and mile time

As my FAB week of Staycation ends I need to reflect... this post may be a little long just an FYI.. I managed to lose 4 pounds this week as of Wednesday (Monday will be my official weigh in day from hence forth)!!!! Granted I was totally excited to work out and had the energy as I was not working but it also showed me what I am capable of with some hard work (and lots of stretching  I'm so sore). YAAAY minus four pounds but now I am considering how much extra stress and weight my job adds to my life. 

Got my mile time down woot woot 13.29

I have decided that I need a change, if only in the pay. I am no stranger to hard work and have never had an easy job (if that exists)  but when I look at my workload and my paycheck they are just not comparable. Sure I chose the helping profession and when dealing with people it will always be stressful but there has to be something better than community mental health. That being said I am dedicating fifteen minutes per day (more later) to studying for my NCE test. Once I have an extra 400 or so I will register (then majorly increase my study time) and take the test which will lead me toward being a LPC (licensed professional counselor) and thus open up more options for employment.... I had plans to clean my home and cook everyday and I have managed to cook one time and clean the living room. I did do all my homework for the week prior to it being due. Surprisingly I don't feel bad. I honestly needed a break. I needed to sleep all day after a work out and not be made to feel guilty about it. I'm carrying so much guilt any other time about so many other things so this week I was selfish. I know in hindsight I should have done things differently this week but I needed the breather. I did not want to do anything while I was off so I didn't.... there are so many other things I have to say  but don't know where to start but why whine about it ya know. Its my life and I made whatever decision that got me where I am so I gotta put my big girl panties on and change it. I will say this though. Struggling to lose weight is major and my weight tampers with how I feel about everything else. That being said one day at a time one exercise day at a time I must get this weight off.

Lets end this blog on an up note because with the storms, economy, and price of gas no one needs another downer.... My daughter was some character from monster high again this year. I still have not seen this show but she had a ball trunk or treating in the neighborhood!!! Check her out

*Finishes water, and goes to start cleaning  this nasty ass filthy not so clean place we call home*

Whats in a name...

Hello out there!!! Say my name Say my name if no one is around you say baby I love you... *looks around like I was caught dancing at work* LOL You guys remember that sing by Destiny's Child? It was my jam I got on my moms nerves with that song on repeat LOL. My age may be showing now!...

I digress. The blog world is all a buzz with people telling the meaning behind their blog name so here is mine. Kismet means fate, and is happens to be my favorite word! It is originally from the Turkish language but has been adopted into the English language  I came across this word while reading Cheaters, a book by Eric Jerome Dickey (WHO IS MY FAVE AUTHOR AND THIS IS MY FAVE BOOK). I read this book at least three times a year. I just love it and wish there was a movie... Anyway I eventually had this word inked on my ankle. Symbolizing that every step I take is a step in the direction toward my fate.

Kilograms is a form of measurement. Those of you have been reading a while understand my constant struggle with my weight loss and a lot of my post revolve around this so instead of pounds, I chose kilograms because it starts with a K. No other reason. Sooo essentially my blog name is "fate and weight" but I think Kismet and Kilograms sounds better LOL... My blog was previously called "Kismet of my soul", and some other things that I cannot even remember now.... So there it is.

How did you name your blog?

*signs on to school website to do homework*

Monday Management...

MONDAY!!!!! Let me start by saying all Mondays should be like today...For once I was not dreading this day! It is because I am on my first ever Staycation!!! Woot Woot. I have no plans except to work out everyday! It feels so good not to be in a hurry and thinking about whats next. I am so in love my fiance but if it fails I am marrying a man with lots of money so I can be a stay home wife!!!! LOL... Monday was totally my bitch check it out...

14.48 minute mile.... I did 16 minutes on the treadmill total before step class

I really need to bring that mile time down, but hey like the profile says I'm a wanna be runner... *chants to self* I WILL GET THERE... Anywho I did 16 minutes total before I went to a 45 minute step aerobic class.

Me before the step class

With the workout done I was able to eat lunch, start dinner, and do my homework all before noon. Of course I took advantage of the free time and took a NAP!!!!

Not my favorite but not terrible

I love Pinterest so I decided to use one of the thousands of crock pot recipes I have pinned and make dinner.

Just throw it in the POT!

Had to clean this stuff first!!!

*drum roll please*

Crock Pot Chicken soupy stuff... That mini me had two servings of.

So all in all today was a great day... Now time to give the fiance some attention before his lip hangs any lower #poutmuchsir!!!! LOL

How was your Monday? Anything new?

*sips water and goes to the back with the fiance*

Monday morning workout

Who me... Thanks

Just when I was beginning to feel left out my girl nominated for this cool blogging award! Thanks homie!!!

The rules, should you be nominated:
1. If you were nominated, post 11 things about yourselves
2. Then answer the 11 questions the person who nominated you created
3. Create 11 more questions to ask the bloggers you decided to nominate
4. Choose 11 bloggers to nominate with less than 200 followers
5. Make sure and let these people know you nominated them! No tag backs, so don't nominate someone who nominated you.

So here is my 11... Just skim the list Im kind of boring LOL

1.     I hate the toilet seat being up

2.     I am team ANDROID!!!!!

3.     I love going to the nail and hate the beauty salon LOL

4.     I cant stand being hot

5.     I recently have found a love for tea

6.     I silently judge those who leave the house looking better than their children

7.     I am newly engaged

8.     I am trying to give myself a cross addiction to salads and running

9.     I love potatoes

10..  My guilty pleasure is basketball wives… judge me

11. I think my daddy is the best man in the world and that all men should strive to be like him (even now that he is becoming a grumpy old man)

Still there… ok….

Here are the answers to the questions I was asked:
1. Do you have pets?- Not unless my fiancé and 7 year old count! I’m not really the animal type… I do like goldfish though LOL

2. Did you graduate from college?- Twice, and currently working on a second masters in Forensic Psychology

3. How many countries have you traveled to?- Sadly none… I was born in Germany because the parental were in the army but I don’t remember it at ALL

4. What's your favorite TV show?- Hmmm right now I would say Scandal… I love Kerry Washington in this show, and the drama!! Whoo Hooo I’m hooked!

5. Do you love/enjoy your job/career?- I really enjoy helping others, as a therapist it is often thankless and very hard. I hate the pay and the fact that mental health always takes a back seat to everything else. Have you ever heard a politician even speak on the matter? *steps off the soap box*

6. Do you consider yourself an introvert or extrovert?- I would definitely say an extrovert. Id talk to a brick wall if I thought it would talk back. My fiancé says “You just make people talk to you”…. This may be an occupational hazard

7. What your favorite meal to cook?- For my family meatloaf, green beans, and oven roasted potatoes… what I actually like cooking is anything in the crock pot, it’s so easy

8. Why do you blog?- Honestly it started as a place other than twitter to rant about a bad break up… now its more of a weight loss struggle diary… Always a struggle LOL stay tuned….

9. What's one goal/dream you hope to attain in 2013?- Lose weight and feel gorgeous on my wedding day to my best friend, the love of my life!!!

10. If you had more free time, what's something you'd like to do?- Work out more.. no really I would like to travel… but that would require more money so yea I’d say work out more! LOL

11. What's your biggest fear?- Being a failure

My questions-

1.     Iphone or Android

2.     Favorite non healthy food

3.     Guilty pleasure

4.     How many children

5.     What’s in your CD player/ipod/playlist right now

6.     Heels or flats

7.     Skirt or pants

8.     Wine or Liquor

9.     What is your number 1 goal for the next 6 months

 10    Did you go to college

111   Pepsi or Coke

I nominated the following: well I had several more on the list but they have all been nominated

Pirate Moma-http://thepiratemama.blogspot.com/

Jennifer- http://mommentation.blogspot.com/

Anna- http://acwfat2fit.blogspot.com/

Mommy- http://mommyslosingrolls.blogspot.com/

Kasssie-http://southerngrlgetsfit.blogspot.com/

Nikki- http://aus2usa.blogspot.com/

Beth-http://bethmccall.blogspot.com/

Reception Site... sort of

Let's see what has been going on with me... First I have a few new followers! Welcome to the madness. I love comments so feel free to send them! I have decided to do something I have never done before TAKE A WEEK OFF WORK,. I am stoked to stay home and do... NOTHING!!! I work as a mental health therapist in community mental health and let me just say there is always something to do and NEVER a moment to do it. I have been in mental health since 2006 and my current position for almost two years and a break is much needed!!! However in usual Toya fashion the moment my vacation starts so does the next semester of school HAHAAHAH jokes on me so homework will have to be done!...

OK wedding stuff... We have unofficially decided on a reception site venue yaaay!!! On our venue shopping day we got some goodies!

From the DoubleTree.. Our first stop and our eventual choice and just so you know I gave my cookie to the fiance.

From the Marriott our original first choice until we actually went looking... White Chocolate Mocha make it skinny no whip cream

We went to several other places but they did not give any goodies. LOSERS...I say we have unofficially picked a site because we are working class, as in check to check and the next check better come or we may be homeless, not rich or well off by any stretch of the imagination so we have not put a deposit down (whole other melt down post about wedding cost and my love working two jobs I'm sure will eventually be posted) . However the lady at DoubleTree placed us on a conditional interest list. This means if someone else wants our date she will call us first and give us the opportunity to fork over the deposit. GO her!!!! Another reason why I am more than excited to have my big party there. She was amazing... (#DoubleTree by Hilton in Chattanooga, TN).

Weight loss.... I have been going to weight watchers off and on and I am convinced it works I am just confused. She wants me to eat my workout points back??? Ummm no way ma'am. I am no doctor or nutritionist but I know my body and it works like this: 

Eat= gain weight

Eat the right food= maintain weight

Eat the right food and work out= weight loss

Eat the right food, workout, eat again= weight gain

Eat Look at a doughnut=weight gain LOL, come on its not just me

That being said I cannot eat those workout points back!!!!! No WAY. At the last meeting I maintained my weight however when I was not attending meetings I relapsed on my food addiction and was a full blown junkie gained weight that they know nothing about but managed to get it off before returning to the meeting.... I will post a bare all weight post in the near future *cries a little and dies a small death*

Anyway this post is getting long and I have a soccer game to get to so catch you later!!!!

Whats been up with you? How are things weight loss, hair growth, whatever you are doing...

Oh yea I want a signature someone please tell me how to do that!!!!!!! thanks again

BREAKING NEWS!!!!!

SO I know it has been a while but here I am…. So much has happened where to start… I GOT ENGAGED!!!!! Woot woot (mid happy dance thinks Oh hell no I will not be a fat ass bride)…

So he proposed in front of my immediate family and  my line sister (I am a Zeta) at my favorite place to eat, Chillis, which is also where we had our first date!!!! *I scream*

This is us in the way to hang out... EVERYONE knew it was about to happen but me!!!!

He is not good with pictures!!!!

My girl Erin hooked me up with a Pintrest board (as if I didn’t have one LOL)… I found this really cute bridesmaid dress and we will see what the ladies think about it….

Yes the colors are purple and grey and I think this dress is AMAZING!!!!!

Guess more of my meals will have to look like this …

Im going to have to start leaving the cheese off probably

Because I am officially SWEATING FOR THE DRESS!!!! Yaaaaaay

Now I have heard that planning a wedding makes you lose friends but dam! I haven’t even been engaged a week and already people upset. My dear friend was very dry when I announced my engagement letting me know that she was at tailgating (after it had been said that no one could get dressed in time to be at the restaurant) but oh well I still sent her an email asking her to be a bridesmaid but I'm thinking she will get cut. I do not want anyone involved that is not happy for me. I mean geesh be a real friend and fake happiness to me and be jealous on your own time hefer! LOL…

Anywho here we are right after I said yes. I promise I will post a better pic of him but my baby just does not photograph well LOL…

So here we go follow me as I SWEAT FOR THE DRESS, and plan OUR BIG DAY!!!!!....