My Vows... Gotta love me

If you have keeping up with me you know my weight is a struggle. Along with my health issues, and my hip issues I have been losing motivation because of the gain. Then I read this post by my Bloggy bestie about her renewing her fitness vos and I thought Heck yea that is just what I need (although I do need to be working on my love vows too).

I Toya promise to love and honor myself even if I do not like the number on the scale, and since I dont like that number I will work to change it. This work includes:

• Drinking no less than 80oz of water daily
• Eating baked, lean meat (if you know me you know I love anything fried)
• Including protein at every meal
• Staying away from all the things I love (pizza, cheeseburgers, fries) 6 out of the 7 days weekly
• Not overindulging in my love foods on the 7th day
• Working out no less than 5 days a week
• Limiting alcohol consumption to 1 weekend night per week 
• Celebrating the small victories with something other than food

There you have it. I promise to me to do everything possible to keep these vows to myself. I am a better mom, fiance, and employer when I am taking care of me. I have to create a balance and it restarts today!!!!

*How do you stay motivated? How will you stay on track for the holiday?

Monday Management- Biggest Loser

Its Monday and since I was off today I am on a FANTASTIC mood!!! Let me say that I have been hella productive today. *thinks that I want to be a SAHM ok back to my reality* I tip my hat to you ladies because I have heard "mom" 10000000 times today and Im in no hurry to keep hearing it. JUDGE ME!!!! LOL We are moving and I have packed my lil ole apartment up in almost one day. Only thing out are essential DVDS, hygiene stuff, and that dam kitchen is taunting me, I never knew how much I stuff I had until I tried to pack it up... Here is a little sneak peak at my boxes because Im sure looking at boxes is fascinating LOL

Ok let me get to the real reason you all are here. The Biggest Loser link up... 

Well *drum roll* I AM IN ONEDERLAND!!!!!!!!! Ladies with tears in my eyes as I saw this I said "Babe I need my phone I gotta take a picture for my blog"- He is used to this by now but when he saw my face he was concerned. SOOOOO I hopped back on and we saw this:

This brings my stats to- SW 220

             CW 197

GW- Im thinking 150

Total lost -23 pounds

Total lost in challenge- 14 pounds!!!!!!!

While this is very exciting I see no change in my body when I look in the mirror. Recently my fiance told me that my self proclaimed "sexy big girl pants" were too big and I though SMH these fit.... ummm Lets see how wrong I was...

 

Yep I have both my arms in my pants

 

Being silly

I posted these pictures on Instagram but looking at them now.... Speechless. Ok I'm no idiot I recognize that 20 plus pounds is a lot but honestly when I look in the mirror I see the old Toya with the 20 plus pounds. I only see the work that needs to be done. So its important to revel in the progress or it will get discouraging. Always remember that one pound loss per week will eventually add up. Who would have thought I would be down 14 pounds since Jan 1, 2013? Not me. But I am.... What works FOR ME: WATER WATER WATER and I am no water fan but when I guzzle it to the point that I think I will float away the scale gods smile on me. Low carb, I have PCOS and my body craves potatoes like it is heroin but I know that it will only allow the scale to go UP no matter what time of day. I use meal replacement shakes. I know there is often controversy behind this and the amount of calories and needing more calories but this is what works for me. Also WORKING OUT. I DO NOT have the body type that can simply eat right and there will be a lost I have tried that. Been to the weight watchers meetings paid the money and counted the points. While I do think they are on to something with the points I just have to exercise to see results. I have to move my ass!!!!.... And because he is my best friend, my support, my shoulder to cry on, my love, my babys new daddy LOL, my ROCK I thought Id leave you with this silly picture!!!

 

 



We were on our way to church my mom said hey let me get a picture and this is what she got... not planned I promise! LOL

NSV Link up

 

 

On this great LOVE DAY I’m linking up with the fabulous Katie J and Lex for NSV Thursday. Often when we are on our on a weight loss journey we get too hung up on the numbers that stare back at us when we step on the scale. We forget to celebrate the small things so this post is important.



 

 

 

My first victory is I did NOT weight this week. I will be honest (because its MY blog and I can) I was starting to obsess with the number like weighing daily. How unhealthy for me is that. Notice I say for me do what works for you. Anyway so I put the scale away, and she is not coming out until Monday when I weigh in for biggest loser.

My second victory is this:

 

 

If you follow my instagram then you know about these pants if not here is the scoop: Three months ago I was literally stuffing myself into these pants. I was in total denial about the weight I had gained and simply refused to buy a bigger size. I kept telling myself it didn’t look that bad. UMMMM the hell, can we say muffin top extraordinaire. The waist line used to dig into my stomach to the point that it hurt and left ugly marks on my skin, and now look at all that room.

Now had I been focusing on that she devil (the scale) I may have missed this. It is important to remember to enjoy the good parts about the weight loss journey because we all know there are so many bad parts. Enjoy the small victories along the way!!!



Biggest Loser Week 4

Well dolls another Monday is upon us... BOOOOO So I am going to make this short and sweet. I have no idea how much I weigh. I could not get on the scale. I feel swollen, indulged in alcohol, and couldn't stand to see another 1 pound loss or heaven forbid a gain. So in essence Im taking this week as my no weigh in week. Sue Me... The scale in my bathroom mocks me, when Im busting my butt she barely moves down, I make two mistakes and she cant wait to leap forward so no thank you.

In other news I have restarted JM30DS and I am already sore! Those are the longest 20 minutes of my life! Whew!!! So I am going to do it for a complete 30 days along with my other stuff so that hopefully I can see some results and finally post some before and after pictures! I know this was a quick post. I will have more updates this week but I'm tired, have a sick baby, and a sick fiance... Lysol anyone... I swear their poor immune systems are sooo weak, or maybe its the weather. I hope you ladies did well! Happy Monday!!!

This is me after JM30DS and 1 hour of cardio... Tired is an understatement

Biggest Loser Week 2

 

Ok ladies let me get right down to what you want to know. I only lost one pound this week. Im going to say because I lost so much the previous week. I dont know I was consistent with my work outs, and I ate healthy with only one cheat meal (I cant do cheat days they cause too much damage). I think what killed me is my water intake. I have got to drink more water. I have a cup that I know I need to drink and refill 4 times for the best benefit but 3 times is a minimum and I struggle with it. I need to just open up and shove it in (thats what he said) I guess.... In other news Monday has not been good to us. The fiance is in the ER and work has been a beast. I will have to update you all tomorrow for further news... Have a great week hope you all did well.

 

Last week weight- 206

This week weight 205

Pounds lost thuis week- 1

Total pounds since challenge started 6

Monday, Weigh in, and Biggest Loser Link Up!

I am all over the place with this post so try to go with me LOL! Lets start with the usual ITS  MONDAY LADIES!!!! It was a good day for me. I worked out and work was not terrible lol. Who is glad to have the kids back in school raise your hand *raises both hands and then jumps* LOL... Well I have been blog stalking searching lately trying to find some new reads and motivation when I stumbled across Robin. She was talking about doing a weight loss link up and I have never done a link up of any kind so I thought why not. So here we go... 

The Java Mama is hosting a biggest loser link up and you can get all the details by clicking on the link here. This link up is bitter sweet for me because I have been lying to myself saying I am going to write a bear all post where I disclose my weight but because of one reader in particular I cannot seem to type the number. I have so many reasons, and explanations. I have so much to say that could move some to tears but then I'm thinking uh uh lets be raw like Eddie Murphy no need to sugar coat anything. Hell that's what got me in this mess. So here it goes... I have battled with my weight as long as I can remember  In the 6th grade I put myself on a diet (Where were the guidance counselors and school programs then huh? LOL ) lost 25 pounds and seemed to have mastered my weight. I could eat whatever I wanted as long as I exercised.  By exercise I mean take a dance class, walk around the mall, learn the latest dance moves. Nothing like the torture I put myself through now. I competed in beauty pageants from the time I was 18 months until I got pregnant at 19. So back then it was nothing to lose 15 pounds in 2 weeks to be "competition ready." I guess looking back I have never been "happy" with my body. I did not fully appreciate how thin I was and easy my weight management was. geesh if I only I knew then what I know now... Anyway at 19 I get pregnant and it was as bad as it could be, do not misunderstand I love my daughter and she is a blessing but I was 19 and I was not ready. From then on I had no control. My weight went up and down but mostly up. Gone were the days of eating whole pizzas taking a nap then going for a nice stroll and not worrying about weight. When I went into labor I weighed 198 so I decided that I would never be that big again. I got down to 165 then life happened and I was 178. I started working in Social Services going to lunch with co workers, pretended not to notice I was buying a bigger size, made excuses about fabrics, started taking only head shot pictures, and got on a scale and cried when I saw 190. I called some guys I knew started lifting weights with them joined a gym did cardio on my own and got back down to 175 (still not a happy place).So lets come into the present day in the last year I have gained 30 plus pounds of happy weight. My fiance is a chef. But who the hell am I kidding it was me eating fried chicken like it was going out style, drinking alcohol like a client, putting potatoes with every meal and being down right lazy.  No one is to blame but me I did this to myself. So I have to fix it for myself. I have been on my most recent weight loss kick for a while now. You can see my goals here. My plan is to eat clean and train dirty. There is no better way. I am going heavy on the cardio and I have recently incorporated weight lifting. Now here are the numbers

SW- 220

CW- 206

GW- 150

My weight on Jan 1- 211
My weight on Jan 7- 206
For a loss of 5 pounds

 

Excuse my gross toes. I need a pedi and had not put my lotion on yet LOL!!!!

 

Looking at these numbers knowing I will hit publish I feel naked, ashamed, and liberated. Well at least I have some accountability.... Wish me luck!!!

Pictures, Workouts, In-laws Oh MY!!

Hello out there! LOL Ok so so much has been happening let me just upload some phone pics so I can remember share with you because I know you care LOL

 

My hair is cute though LOL

Well this was me Monday, and speaking of which it won. I had a rough Sunday (See post) so Monday had a head start on me. Well to top that off I did not work out. I know I'm losing with that but I did not overindulge in any food, sweets, or alcohol! Like I told myself this morning today is a new day for me to get it right.... I met the future in laws this weekend and it went very well!!!! They liked me they liked me *does happy dance* and here are some pictures from that trip. If you follow my Instagram and you SHOULD!!!! you have seen some of these!



Riding along snapping like a tourist! LOL

Dinner Drinks

Light show

The Arch

My baby

at the Flea market  playing around

The fiance, His Father, and my mini me

On the road headed there

 

Thursday my little one was sick and I had to pick her up from school early. Well the lady slid me a piece of paper making sure I knew she could not come back until 24 hours fever free later. I'm thinking lady she is 8 I have done this a time or two!!!... Anywho I know I have talked trash about my job and while I meant most of it and the pay is crappy (wait where was I going with this) on Friday I took my baby with me and this is what she did.... And no she did not come into any contact with the clients. Fridays are my light days and when I had a client she went into another room.

 

Watching TV enjoying being sick

I wheeled in the TV so she could be entertained

 So I guess there are some perks to my job. No one batted an eye. Sure she cant come daily but hey it was an emergency. Now what you really want to know is have I been working out. YES I HAVE!!!!! I say that with such pride because it is so easy for me to lose focus and start saying oh I will do it tommorow. I am going to start my 30 day shred count over because I have not been consistent, and I really want to get in 30 workouts in 30 days. That wont be happening until Jan 4, 2013 though. In the mean time I will be doing it in the mornings along with my other stuff. I am just no longer counting the days because I missed so many. And because we all do it here are some sweaty pics LOL

 

 

 

 

 

 

Notice the outfits are different LOL I have been doing it!!! Go ME!!! Well I believe that about sums up things this way! Hope all is well with you and your goals, and you are done shopping because it is getting wreck less out here LMBO!!!

 

 

*sips water as I try to make sure I get it all in before I go home*