Wedding Details Link up!!!

It counts if I havent actually gotten married yet right LOL...Nothing like linking up with mega blogs that you stalk. Today I’m linking up with Holly and Mel to discuss weddings!!! As you all know I’m engaged and my big day is NOVEMBER 30, 2013 and according to my app that is 163 days away. You can read about my engagement, mega to do list, or my wedding binder that I made if you like. Since we haven’t actually jumped the broom (by the way anyone know where I can get one of those) I will sneak peak a few engagement shots!!! Enjoy!!!

Location- We will be married in my hometown at Holy Temple COGIC (not my home church)… They have purple carpet that matches my color scheme!!! The PARTY will be at a hotel… bar included… well bar funded my dad LOL

Bridal Party—8 bridesmaids, 8 groomsmen, 2 jr Bridesmaids, 2 jr groomsmen 3 flower girls, 3 hostesses, 1 male usher…. Wayyyy too many people. If I could take back the invites (and the people who guilted me into saying yes) I would but eh we will make it rock!

Colors—Purple dresses for my gals and grey suits for his guys

First Dance—Ummmm I’m undecided… any suggestions????

Honeymoon—He is planning that I don’t need the stress or the responsibility. I told him I want to be surprised, and I want something tropical *crosses my fingers and prays for a great honeymoon

 

What Would I Change?— Well my big day has not arrived but what I would do differently is not broadcast it for a few months and just enjoy him. I also would not be bullied into saying yes to every cousin that called me her favorite. LOL!!!

 

 

 

 

Side note I am loving my booty in these jeans... Sorry Im not sorry for saying that!!!

 

 

For more  pictures and info on us and our day check out our site

Biggest Loser Weigh IN

Monday blah blah... For real it was a Monday from hell. The clients were on a ten, my boss was tripping, and the heat was broken. Not a good day for me. This post is a little bit bitter sweet. I'm sure I didn't win (I suck and haven't been keeping up with everyone like I did in the beginning) but I am going to miss linking up with you ladies  If anyone is a new follower be sure to let me know and leave your blog address I will follow back. 

Even though I have become a human trash can for bad food, and alcohol I managed to lose a pound and I'm not sure how. I even took a week off from the gym. My knees were super sore and we moved... on a freakin Tuesday (yet another example of me being bat shit crazy). I mean why did I not take Wednesday off? The one day I work hella late?Why must I wait until the end of the challenge to lose my mind? LOL But a pound lost is a loss!

This brings my stats to- SW 220

CW 196

GW- 150

Total lost -24 pounds

Total lost in challenge- 15 pounds!!!!!!!

Now that this is done I am ready for something else so who is hosting the next link up?!?!?!?!?! I don't think I have enough followers to do so... I have another post about the wedding in the works so stay tuned!!! Just because its what we bloggers do here are some random phone pics:

We were on our way back from Chattanooga... LOL Car Session!!!!

 

what I do when I get bored in the car and he is busy

As I post this next picture I had a thought... I am going to do a juicing detox for the next week. I have a dress to get into, and I DO NOT need another dressing room melt down....

A little ashamed to post this but isnt the blog about accountability? March MUST be better

Monday- Weigh in- Link up

Weekend oh weekend where art thou... Ok peeps It is Monday.. am I not always typing that? Well I suck. I got comfortable and ate like a crazy person this weekend. My only saving grace is that I have really allowed myself to enjoy the gym and I crave it (at least three days a week, the other days I go its a pure struggle). I went to Chattanooga for wedding stuff, and ate like a mad man, and drink liquor like I was being paid... WTH happened to all that water. SMH. Again I rocked it in the gym so the damage was minimal. I only lost one pound making my new stats:

 





SW 220

CW 196

GW- Im thinking 150

Total lost -24 pounds

Total lost in challenge- 15 pounds!!!!

 

I know I should be proud but if I had stayed on program this weekend what would I be typing instead? Oh well its a new week and another chance to get it right! I have a meeting with my bridesmaid this weekend and Im moving tomorow so busy is an understatment. Looks like those at home workouts from Pintrest will come in handy...Now for your viewing pleasure here are some random pics from my phone!

 

 

 

Me at work today wishing it was Friday again

My number 1 guy... this is my Father he had just come back from a party with my mom

Me with my nephew....in this picture I totally see some weight loss

Him wondering why I have a light (the flash) in his face

My boo is so supportive he totally went to the gym with me with NO music!

 

 

 

 

A little before and after... I always look beat up after the gym... My sunglasses kept sliding off and I didn't want to bother with them on the way home.

 

 

 

Well thats it for now... how did you all do? Whats new. Some things will be changing around here soon and I really hope you stick around for them!!!

 



NSV Link Up

 

Another week of linking up with my Katie and Lex! Often we get toooooo caught up in the number on the scale. Or is that just me? Eh either way this is a time to focus on the positive. You know not the crap or the fat that weighing us all down. I digress...

 

My victory is short and sweet this week. I was able to complete an arm workout with my fiance. When I tell you all my strength is in my legs I am not kidding. I can squat, lunge, and all the other leg stuff but you ask me to bench press something and I am running for the hills!

 

Tuesday we decided to reintroduce weight training after a major cardio overload, because you know you have to do both, and since my goal is to lose 70-80 pounds I have a phobia of the dreaded skin so we hit the weights. I was able to complete 7 different upper body stations with no less than 35 pounds, and I did 3 sets of 8 on each station/machine. Im not to fancy in the gym yet and I dont know all the names MY BAD LOL... I did notice that on the machines that work your back (possibly called a lat pull down and/or a row) I was able to really increase the weight I was doing like 70 Woot Woot. So thats my victory.

 

How did you ladies do?

Monday Management- Biggest Loser

Its Monday and since I was off today I am on a FANTASTIC mood!!! Let me say that I have been hella productive today. *thinks that I want to be a SAHM ok back to my reality* I tip my hat to you ladies because I have heard "mom" 10000000 times today and Im in no hurry to keep hearing it. JUDGE ME!!!! LOL We are moving and I have packed my lil ole apartment up in almost one day. Only thing out are essential DVDS, hygiene stuff, and that dam kitchen is taunting me, I never knew how much I stuff I had until I tried to pack it up... Here is a little sneak peak at my boxes because Im sure looking at boxes is fascinating LOL

Ok let me get to the real reason you all are here. The Biggest Loser link up... 

Well *drum roll* I AM IN ONEDERLAND!!!!!!!!! Ladies with tears in my eyes as I saw this I said "Babe I need my phone I gotta take a picture for my blog"- He is used to this by now but when he saw my face he was concerned. SOOOOO I hopped back on and we saw this:

This brings my stats to- SW 220

             CW 197

GW- Im thinking 150

Total lost -23 pounds

Total lost in challenge- 14 pounds!!!!!!!

While this is very exciting I see no change in my body when I look in the mirror. Recently my fiance told me that my self proclaimed "sexy big girl pants" were too big and I though SMH these fit.... ummm Lets see how wrong I was...

 

Yep I have both my arms in my pants

 

Being silly

I posted these pictures on Instagram but looking at them now.... Speechless. Ok I'm no idiot I recognize that 20 plus pounds is a lot but honestly when I look in the mirror I see the old Toya with the 20 plus pounds. I only see the work that needs to be done. So its important to revel in the progress or it will get discouraging. Always remember that one pound loss per week will eventually add up. Who would have thought I would be down 14 pounds since Jan 1, 2013? Not me. But I am.... What works FOR ME: WATER WATER WATER and I am no water fan but when I guzzle it to the point that I think I will float away the scale gods smile on me. Low carb, I have PCOS and my body craves potatoes like it is heroin but I know that it will only allow the scale to go UP no matter what time of day. I use meal replacement shakes. I know there is often controversy behind this and the amount of calories and needing more calories but this is what works for me. Also WORKING OUT. I DO NOT have the body type that can simply eat right and there will be a lost I have tried that. Been to the weight watchers meetings paid the money and counted the points. While I do think they are on to something with the points I just have to exercise to see results. I have to move my ass!!!!.... And because he is my best friend, my support, my shoulder to cry on, my love, my babys new daddy LOL, my ROCK I thought Id leave you with this silly picture!!!

 

 



We were on our way to church my mom said hey let me get a picture and this is what she got... not planned I promise! LOL

NSV Link up

 

 

On this great LOVE DAY I’m linking up with the fabulous Katie J and Lex for NSV Thursday. Often when we are on our on a weight loss journey we get too hung up on the numbers that stare back at us when we step on the scale. We forget to celebrate the small things so this post is important.



 

 

 

My first victory is I did NOT weight this week. I will be honest (because its MY blog and I can) I was starting to obsess with the number like weighing daily. How unhealthy for me is that. Notice I say for me do what works for you. Anyway so I put the scale away, and she is not coming out until Monday when I weigh in for biggest loser.

My second victory is this:

 

 

If you follow my instagram then you know about these pants if not here is the scoop: Three months ago I was literally stuffing myself into these pants. I was in total denial about the weight I had gained and simply refused to buy a bigger size. I kept telling myself it didn’t look that bad. UMMMM the hell, can we say muffin top extraordinaire. The waist line used to dig into my stomach to the point that it hurt and left ugly marks on my skin, and now look at all that room.

Now had I been focusing on that she devil (the scale) I may have missed this. It is important to remember to enjoy the good parts about the weight loss journey because we all know there are so many bad parts. Enjoy the small victories along the way!!!



NSV- Link up

 

 

Hello ladies!!!! Ugghh is it Friday yet? LOL Im not sure about you all but this week has killed me... Moving on Im linking up with KTJ and Lex to talk about a NSV I had this week. For those of you who may not know in the weight loss world NSV is a non scale victory. Often we measure our success by that darn scale and she/he can be a rude BIAOTCH at times!!! Which is why we must celebrate the NSV.....

 

 

Sooo... anyone that knows me knows that Chillis is my spot!

 

 



 

 I love that place and mainly for the happy hour dont judge me!!! So I have a coupon for a FREE DESSERT(because Im in the club and get emails from them) and I DID NOT use it. The whole way there I was thinking well I will just let mini me have it because its free. Who was I kidding I would have grabbed a spoon and dove right in as soon as hit the table. So it may not be much but for me not ordering the FREE dessert was a major NSV this week!!!!

 

I wasnt the only adult who enjoyed happy hour at the table!!! LOL

 

Im already prepard to do extra cardio for those drinks too!!! LOL!!!

 



 

5 for 5 Link up





Hello ladies!!! I have decided to link up with Jenn and Jessica for the 5 list. Since I am doing so well with my ither link up I have become ever so ambitious!!! If you have been under a rock and havenet heard if it (like I was) then  here. Since this is my first time I have nothing to report so lets get to the list:

1. Start the 30 day shred... I have made it to day 12 but never beyond... #LOSING
2. Deep clean my home, even if I have to go a room per day. (My house is not big, its an apartment actually so you have no idea how lazy that makes me sound LOL)
3. Fold the laundry that is already done... I despise laundry and in my residence I can never get ahead of the game
4. Do a little homework every night -Im in grad school...AGAIN... and this procrastination will be the death of me.
5. Juice one meal per day every day this week- hey I have to start small I Love food.

So there you have my 5 now head on over and link up your 5!!!

Monday, Weigh in, and Biggest Loser Link Up!

I am all over the place with this post so try to go with me LOL! Lets start with the usual ITS  MONDAY LADIES!!!! It was a good day for me. I worked out and work was not terrible lol. Who is glad to have the kids back in school raise your hand *raises both hands and then jumps* LOL... Well I have been blog stalking searching lately trying to find some new reads and motivation when I stumbled across Robin. She was talking about doing a weight loss link up and I have never done a link up of any kind so I thought why not. So here we go... 

The Java Mama is hosting a biggest loser link up and you can get all the details by clicking on the link here. This link up is bitter sweet for me because I have been lying to myself saying I am going to write a bear all post where I disclose my weight but because of one reader in particular I cannot seem to type the number. I have so many reasons, and explanations. I have so much to say that could move some to tears but then I'm thinking uh uh lets be raw like Eddie Murphy no need to sugar coat anything. Hell that's what got me in this mess. So here it goes... I have battled with my weight as long as I can remember  In the 6th grade I put myself on a diet (Where were the guidance counselors and school programs then huh? LOL ) lost 25 pounds and seemed to have mastered my weight. I could eat whatever I wanted as long as I exercised.  By exercise I mean take a dance class, walk around the mall, learn the latest dance moves. Nothing like the torture I put myself through now. I competed in beauty pageants from the time I was 18 months until I got pregnant at 19. So back then it was nothing to lose 15 pounds in 2 weeks to be "competition ready." I guess looking back I have never been "happy" with my body. I did not fully appreciate how thin I was and easy my weight management was. geesh if I only I knew then what I know now... Anyway at 19 I get pregnant and it was as bad as it could be, do not misunderstand I love my daughter and she is a blessing but I was 19 and I was not ready. From then on I had no control. My weight went up and down but mostly up. Gone were the days of eating whole pizzas taking a nap then going for a nice stroll and not worrying about weight. When I went into labor I weighed 198 so I decided that I would never be that big again. I got down to 165 then life happened and I was 178. I started working in Social Services going to lunch with co workers, pretended not to notice I was buying a bigger size, made excuses about fabrics, started taking only head shot pictures, and got on a scale and cried when I saw 190. I called some guys I knew started lifting weights with them joined a gym did cardio on my own and got back down to 175 (still not a happy place).So lets come into the present day in the last year I have gained 30 plus pounds of happy weight. My fiance is a chef. But who the hell am I kidding it was me eating fried chicken like it was going out style, drinking alcohol like a client, putting potatoes with every meal and being down right lazy.  No one is to blame but me I did this to myself. So I have to fix it for myself. I have been on my most recent weight loss kick for a while now. You can see my goals here. My plan is to eat clean and train dirty. There is no better way. I am going heavy on the cardio and I have recently incorporated weight lifting. Now here are the numbers

SW- 220

CW- 206

GW- 150

My weight on Jan 1- 211
My weight on Jan 7- 206
For a loss of 5 pounds

 

Excuse my gross toes. I need a pedi and had not put my lotion on yet LOL!!!!

 

Looking at these numbers knowing I will hit publish I feel naked, ashamed, and liberated. Well at least I have some accountability.... Wish me luck!!!