I'm not really sure what got me in my fat girl funk but after reading my Bloggy boo's guest post repeatedly I am rejuvenated. I also stalked Joi's page and really looked at her pics (how is her hair always so flawless lol) and thought about how far away I am from really wearing a bathing suit and believe me it helped.
I thought of all the excuses that I could type (stress, emotions, unable to workout, new job, guilt from leaving old job) to justify my behavior but really there is none. Not one excuse that will make my ring no longer sliding on my finger, pants being too tight, and being embarrassed and pulling on my shirt any better.
I promised myself I would be as transparent as possible n this blog and there it is. I am FAILING. However I do not have to continue to fail. I do not have to keep eating everything. I'm disgusted with myself for having to start over YET AGAIN. Its very embarrassing to have to tell you guys that I have essentially relapsed... again, The only way I can stop starting over is to not stop.
I will not be waiting until Monday I WILL be starting again in the morning. I really have no excuse. My daughter is not here so working out before work will be simple. Sleeping is not helping me lose weight anyway... So here is to tomorrow yet another new beginning...
Yea Im avoiding it for now...
